Sunday, 26 October 2014

When is it time to cut your loses?

When is it time to cut your loses and give up on your dreams?

As a kid we are told to dream big and we can achieve it all, but what happens when we realise that we can't achieve them? When do you give up?

At 16, I dreamed of being married in my early 20's. I could see myself working in a book store and being happy. 

At 18, I dreamed of owning that book store and maybe having it attached to a café with funky chairs and lounges littering the place to invite people to relax. 

At 21, I was still single with no boyfriend in sight. I dreamed of getting married in my late 20's and working in a better job than what I was. It was at this time I realised that I learned that I liked talking to people as I could be anyone I wanted to be and they would know no different. 

At 25, I dreamed of exploring more of the world before I settled down. I had travelled part of Australia, but it wasn't enough. I dreamed of getting married still and having children. My earlier dreams of owning a book store faded further and further into the background. 

At 28, I dreamed of becoming an author. If only I thought that I was good enough for it. If want a book store or a café, but it was still something that I enjoyed  I was still as single as I was at 16, so now or wad marriage and children that we floating further and further into the background. 

At 30, I dreamed of escaping, even just for a little bit, and I did. I saw more of the world and became even more restless with life. 

Now at 31, I don't have the heart to dream and I can't help but wonder if it is time to cut my losses and give up on my dreams. Nothing I have dreamed has really come true. I am not married, I don't have children of my own, I don't work or own a book store and I am definitely not an author. That isn't to say that I am not thankful for what I have and my life as it is,  but it certainly isn't the one that I ever dreamed of wanting. 

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